Sorry for your loss Lloyd3. My father is 90 plus and I am not looking forward to his passing. On the other hand I know he is ready. Everyone he grew up with are gone, my mother has been gone six years, two of his children are gone. He has one sister holding on still but that is all and she is under hospice care. I get the feeling he is afraid we all will go before him sometimes. It takes time but part of the grieving is remembering how lucky you were to have him. It eases the loss.