I am also sorry for your loss. At the same time I understand your fascination and satisfaction with hunting alone. And with being alone but not lonely.
I felt a loneliness when my paternal grandfather died. He was most of my world. I am equally sure I would feel a similar loneliness if my wife of 53 years was to precede me in death. But, although I work alone often, all day, I'm never lonely.
I am surrounded by family and friends who love me and enjoy my company, and I theirs. But, there is a big part of me that needs to be alone, a lot.
I think it's a good thing to be able to enjoy solitude for a day, or days, and equally enjoy the reunion with loved ones afterwards.
